SENATOR PACKWOOD RESIGNS : One Traumatic Page From a Book of Crude Charges : Allegations: A staffer vividly describes how Packwood twice forced himself upon her.

In the summer of 1975, Paige Wagers, age 21, landed her first job on Capitol Hill. She was hired in the office of Oregon Sen. Bob Packwood.

One day, she was buzzed on the office intercom and asked to go to see the senator himself. Nervous, she entered the office of her new boss.

“He immediately closed the door, and did not say anything to me, but grabbed me and had me pinned backwards with my back to the wall,” she testified in an affidavit released Thursday.

“Before I could say anything--I was in shock--he stuck his tongue in my mouth and was French-kissing me.” Grasping her long hair in one hand, the veteran lawmaker held her and tried to fondle her, she said. “I remember the feeling of being trapped,” she said.

Her vivid account is the most damaging portrayal of Packwood as a crude, aggressive and unapologetic harasser of young women among many such stories set forth in the more than 10,000 pages of documents released by the Senate Ethics Committee on Thursday.

In his defense, Packwood has claimed that over 25 years, he tried to kiss a few women, and then usually he was drunk. Most of his encounters took place in the evening with professional women and campaign aides.

But the documents also show that the senator sometimes suddenly grabbed elevator operators or low-level staffers during midday in the U.S. Capitol.

The attack on Wagers left her in tears and feeling “like a zombie,” she said. What’s worse, she said, it was repeated six years later, just at the time she had developed a new confidence in her professional abilities.

In 1981, she was hired as a legislative assistant at the Department of Labor and was sent to a committee hearing in the Senate. To her dismay, she encountered her first boss there.

The senator struck up a friendly conversation and asked about her career. As they walked down the hall, he suggested they stop at his office. To her alarm and amazement, the office turned out to be a dark cubbyhole in the basement of the Capitol.

“He, again, without warning, grabbed me and kissed me,” she said, and pinned her against the wall. “He had both hands behind my head with his hands in my hair and had his body and face pressed against me.”

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Once again, after a few minutes of wrestling and talking, she freed herself and escaped.

Twenty years ago, after the first incident, she had no recourse. She said she told her story to several male friends in Packwood’s office who were sympathetic. However, they urged her simply to stay away from the senator.

“The guys told me that I could forget about it, that it was my word against his, and nobody would want to hear it,” she said. “There was no Senate committee, no office for women to complain to at the time.”

Wagers said the second incident destroyed her confidence in herself and contributed to the loss of her professional career.

“It had a devastating effect on me personally,” she told the committee investigators. “I lost all confidence in myself. . . . I was afraid to be around men. . . . Emotionally, financially and intellectually, I remained frozen in time.”

Recently, Wagers said she has worked as a social worker in northern Virginia.

For his part, Packwood told the committee he had “no recollection” of either incident.

“I remember her as young, personable, blonde,” he testified, but denied recalling attacking her in either 1975 or 1981.

Instead, Packwood remembered a staff member saying Wagers may have been interested in having an affair with him.

The Ethics Committee said it found that explanation ludicrous. Its report concludes: “Sen. Packwood’s conduct in this instance fits a pattern of conduct that reflects an abuse of his position of authority.”