Tulisa Contostavlos has thanked pals Niall Horan, Marvin and Rochelle Humes and Rylan Clark for helping her cope with her court ordeal.
Speaking about the newspaper sting that left her facing serious drugs charges, the Young hitmaker said: “I locked myself off a lot from the world so there only a few people that could contact me.
"Marvin and Rochelle are two people that really had my back throughout - and Niall and Rylan.”
The singer said: “It just all got too much for me.
"I’m not going to sit here and want a pity party. It was a dark time, a very dark moment but I’ve got through it and I am here today.”
“Its been a really really hard year - the most difficult year of my life but at the same time I always try to tale a positive from a negative and its given me the kind of life experience that you can’t buy - that it takes some people ten years to gain. Its also made me a wiser person. Stronger.”
“I felt a million emotions.
"How could I have not seen it? I felt like my life was over. Like someone had taken my life away. They took it out of my hands and took it away in a second.”
Following the dramatic collapse of her drugs trial , Tulisa said she had never been involved in taking cocaine, or supplying it.
“I’ve openly admitted to smoking weed.
"There are a lot of people in this industry that have dabbled in cocaine and I am one of the very few that haven’t and don’t.
"To me it feels a bit of a class thing as well. There are certain people of a different class that can get off very lightly in certain situations and it gets laughed off. With me everything gets made to feel a lot worse - because of the class thing - because at times I do get shown as a bit of a rebel of the industry but I am actually quite the opposite.”
The former X Factor judge says that the thought of going to prison absolutely terrified her.
“Prison was very scary at first but then I had to come to terms with it because I thought it was a possibility.
"I came to terms with it - I accepted it. The biggest fear for me was losing my livelihood; something I have worked for from the age of 11 years old. I’ve not known anything else, its all I have had.
"Its my life. I just woke up one day and it was taken out of hands - I had no control - I couldn’t work I couldn’t speak to clear my name because of legal reasons. I just had to sit in silence just being bashed left right and centre by the media - and being portrayed as a monster.”
Tulisa found herself in a very dark place.
“There are different levels of depression - when I got low, I got really really low.
"But I picked myself up quicker than most and got on with things the best I could. My lowest point was when I found out I was going to be officially charged. It had already been dragging on for so long. When I found out I was being charged I lost the faith.”
But now the case has been dropped, Tulisa is hoping to resume her career,
“I have no idea what is going to happen - no idea how the public will feel about me coming back. I’ve been portrayed as a monster. I’m going to try and go back to what I love again.”
Watch our exclusive first clip of Tulisa's tell-all documentary here .
Tulisa Contostavlos will appear on Good Morning Britain Monday from 6am on ITV
