by the bay in Lorient, France |
I am so looking forward to coming home. Home as in Atlanta. As the plane took off I actually smiled: a grin spread across my face every foot - I mean meter - the plane lifted off.
It's not that I don't like France. Not that at all. It's that, to live in a foreign culture, well, it's foreign. I may be a body in a foreign culture, but living in another culture is like having a foreign body inside of you. Like a splinter that breaks off, and the skin grows over it, and you experience just the slightest infection as your body pushes it out.
Incidentally, my horoscope told me the whole month of July that I would either accept the foreign body happily, or move into my decidedly foreign future after all, kicking and screaming all the way. Which means, I guess, that I have a foreign future, of some sort.
Finally I speak French with a modicum of dignity, though I am certainly still all but illiterate here. It's not my 2002 Nokia that's the real problem with me texting you back, it's that I can't actually write very much French. I speak as I hear and I write as I see. Like a three year old.
And here I'd like to pause to give a shout out to all the immigrants. Americans are fond of saying "We're all immigrants," but unless you learned to speak English by watching Fox News, unless every blessed moment of relief - the kind of relief you feel when you understand and are understood - which often comes from having heard and remembered a single phrase - well, you are not an immigrant. You are not migrant at all, not in a cultural sense. You are comfortable where you are, and that, in itself, is a privilege. It is something I am looking forward to feeling again.