We all know death is inevitable. But we try to find every loop, how we could have prevented it.
On Jan 13,2016, my poor husband and younger sister had to take decision and give consent being my health care proxy to give approval of my emergency ECMO. Nurse who came to get the signature was very nervous, they had no hope if I would make it. It was 95/05 chances. Well, my husband signed the form and after seven hours I opened my eyes and saw his heart eyes. Outside the ICU my... entire family resting up and ICU staff celebrating their victory with red velvet cupcakes brought for my birthday. I got best birthday gift ever, that is more time while waiting for lungs.
A bridge to transplant as the best birthday gift while timing was worst.
Today we were talking about Great Fighter Mohamad Ali, whom I looked up since as little girl and my father's Idol as a boxer, how his demise could have been prevented using the same technique that was used on me. My dad grieving the most. He even told me, if that hospital had no Ecmo machine and was limited. Must be true, may be there was no Ecmo and he might have died of different cause then respiratory failure. Everything is May Be .
For all the things, I have experience, I worry not to worry a lot about things in life now. I am trying to move forward by taking one step at a time. Healing is a long journey, I still struggle with pain from my surgery and sleep the most.
Many times I have medical withdrawals and I am just lump of fresh and bones shaking and completely zero energy.
I have learned to appreciate life and all the people who have contributed their prayers, time and money for my better health.
I just want to dedicate this song of positivity to all my followers, friends and family. This song was dedicated to me during Himalayan Yak fundraising event, where all the musicians and residence of New York joined together for me and my family.
Thank you Phiroj Dai ! You are such a wonderful person with sun sized heart and best wishes !
We are forever thankful .
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